On the subject of being ready to accept initiation when the time comes, Guruji says, “previous knowledge can be a big obstacle.” When seekers or new disciples have been taught to believe and have faith in a certain way, it is hard to accept anything new. “When you are already full of knowledge, it is not easy to surrender to a Guru, even if it is an auspicious time. So it sometimes happens that the gift of initiation is rejected out of fear, or a feeling of not being deserving of it,” he continued.
When these people choose to receive Kriya and become disciples, the one thing that they have in common with all other disciples at the start is that they are very happy. They feel the incomparable inner peace that can only be experienced through Kriya, and have no doubts about their love for Guruji. And yet as time passes, different obstacles appear on their path than for those people who actively sought Kriya initially. A monster called doubt and lethargy rears its ugly head and cries, “I was given Kriya, but it was not really my choice. Why me? I didn’t ask to walk this path!” It is another scene of the inner battle, as vividly described in the Bhagvad Gita. And, like Arjuna, they want to abandon practice. The will to make the effort and slay the monster does not seem to be there.
A lack of knowledge, on the other hand, is also not helpful, for without some willingness to research the source of Kriya Yoga, read about the lives of the masters and study what the scriptures say about practice, it is incredibly difficult to see through the relentless tricks and objections of the mind on the Kriya path when obstacles appear.