Expectations and the Obstacle Called Doubt


Before Easter, I was writing about Guruji’s story about the Saint who loved sweets, and the three reasons why it especially appealed to me. So far I only mentioned two. If you want to read it again, it is here.

The third reason was that it also speaks of expectations, which can lead to doubt. The woman had waited for a month in great anticipation of what the Guru would do or say – and as far as she was concerned, his answer was not good enough. Her initial reaction was one of shock and anger – and if she had fully identified with her mind, perhaps she would have been left feeling doubtful about the spiritual authority of this saint.

One thing I have learned over the years with Guruji is that if you come to listen to him with expectations of what you think he should say or not say due to the conditioning of your mind, you should certainly be prepared for a big shock. (And you might need some chocolate to get over it too, lol!) Both disciples and would-be disciples can certainly find themselves tested at times by a Guru’s words as well as with his actions. And tests like these are not nice. In fact they can be highly confusing. However, if we were never put through our paces, if we didn’t have to climb over obstacles such as doubt, we would never grow to discover our inner strength and potential.

There is a very powerful method to free the mind of its conditioning, and that is Kriya Yoga. It is deep, powerful and scientific meditation technique. The mind itself does not want to be freed of its conditioning, so it may put up a valiant fight from start to finish. As Guruji has been saying (and as mentioned in previous blogs, see the tags on “mind”) it can only see half the story, not the whole story.

If we can stay aware of this, it may be easier to get through those periods of doubt and darkness. If we hold on to what Guruji constantly repeats about the need to stay strong in practice, and realise that this is what we need to do above all else, we can climb over the obstacles on the yoga path. The Guru is the guide because he has already travelled the journey to self-realisation and is able to help others on their way. But he cannot practise for anyone else. We have to do that part all by ourselves!

P.S. You may have noticed that the story of The Saint who Loved Chocolate is a slight variation on a true story account from the life of Mahatma Gandhi. Blog readers should understand that Guruji tells many stories in his own words and his own way, and it is not always possible for me to locate the exact source of the original versions. In any case I prefer to pass them on in the same vein as he tells them, since Guruji’s purpose in telling these stories in his own way is simply for listeners “to understand and the sense and meaning behind them.

However, if readers can ever help with pinpointing original sources which should be acknowledged, please write to me at heidi(at)kriyasource.com and I will be more than glad to do so. Many thanks.